My personal firsts of 2014

January 1, 2015 at 12:02 AM 5 comments

1. The first time I actually played a Morning Musume MV to my friends because I was so proud of the girls. (It was Toki wo Koe Sora wo Koe and as much as the song is not my favourite single I can’t stop admiring the music video.)

2. The first time I bought official H!P goods. (I love you, my sweet pink muffler towel. I wanna have your babies.)


3. The first time I genuinely cried at a graduation concert. ( How could I not cry when Sayu broke down while fighting to keep the smile on her face? That was her big moment and the injury stopped her from giving her everything into the performance. That moment when the lights went out just before other members were supposed to congratulate her because she couldn’t stand on her own was too much. I even took part in a tribute vidΒ

4. The first time I cried from happiness countless time during one day. (There are no words. Japan Expo was the happiest experience of this year if not of my entire life.)

201407030715,xlarge.14077731765. The first time I made eye contact with an idol. (Oh, Airi. Your warmth and gentleness should be sold in small bottles.)

6. The first time I felt what it means to be a fan. (It’s one thing to like your idol’s music, but it’s another thing to cheer for them live.)

7. The first time I understood the pain of losing one’s oshi. (Neither Sayumi nor any member of Berryz Koubou is my oshi but only meeting fellow fans, seeing their love for their oshis and then hearing of their loss made my truly understand what it means. I will never speak lightly of this matter.)

20140914_162802_mr14107057207828. The first time I got an autograph from an idol. (I couldn’t be there with a poster in my hand but there were people out there who helped me made this first come true,

9. The first time I attended an H!P concert. (I hope it’s not the last time because I had the blast of the lifetime.)

berikyuu concert10. The first time I walked the streets of Paris on my own. (I’ve been to this city before and I think it has its own charm. This time I could feel it on my own while travelling to JE or my hostel.)

20140706_08540611. The first time I received gifts from complete strangers. (From a simple picture to CD I received more love that I could handle without breaking down in tears)

12. The first time I learnt the chants. ( I watched the tutorial videos and rocked those Ois and HAHAHAs.)

13. The first time I could feel absolutely free. (Is there anything more beautiful to take part in a strange ritual that includes specific clothes, lights, colours, arm movements, shouts and music? I don’t think so. Being able to scream, laugh, cry and dance with people who knew EXACTLY what you feel is freeing.)

berikyuu concert 214. The first time I ate at a proper Japanese restaurant. (Thank you my sweet French boys :*)

20140705_21075315. The first time I cheered for a German football team. (C’mon Mimi, it was huge for us here in Poland. I’m glad I could talk it through with you.)

16. The first time I met my favourite bloggers in real life. (While planning my JE trip I read though my fellow bloggers’ acounts of previous Expos. I’ve came across a sweet story of love between two people, two fans of Hello Project. Would I imagine meeting those two in Paris? Nope. Would I think they would turn out to be the sweetest people ever? Would I imagine meeting another famous blogger who turned out to be a raging alcoholic just as I imagined him to be? :P)

17. The first time I did the Yurushite Nyan with Momoko. (It’s the guilty pleasure of 2014.)

momo_nyan_1[1]18. The first time I spoke French. (Parlez-vous anglais? was my favourite.)

19. The first time I used Twitter. (Now I know where the other fans dwell. And I thought H!O wa sthe only place out there.)

20. The first time I came out of an idol closet at a convention. (Another freeing moment for me. I wore that Berikyuu T-shirt with much pride.)

21. The first time I regretted an idol group to have changed its name from a mildly irritating oneΒ  to complete WTF. (I’m just full of anger. And germs.)

22. The first time I felt the world is not such a big place after all. (If you meet people from around the world you feel that money plus an aeroplane canΒ  get you everywhere. It was my first flight as well so it was a new thought.)

20140707_11354223. The first time I wore a wig. (It was fun! And very practical. It was easier to let go and just goof around.)

24. The first time I was mentioned in an idol’s blog. ( Dear Orange Port, I love you so much and hope you’ll gain more and more fans. You’ve got one in me already.)

orange port expo25. The first time I did the famous Su-pe-sha-lu Ge-ne-ra-tion chant. (It’s such a milestone for me. Why is it that important? I have no idea. I just love this song to no end.)

26. The first time I spoke some basic Japanese and was praised for the quality of it. (Pooru dansu muzukashikatta desska? Damn, I was so proud of myself. )

27. The first time I saw my oshi live. (Again, no words to explain this feeling. She’s just a young adult doing her job. I’m older than her. She could have been my student! Yet, I felt timid, sheepish and utterly blessed while interacting with her. It wasn’t the everyday Suzuki Airi, a girl from a different country. It was a true idol.)

BrnqGfmCYAE3PyR.jpg orig28. The first time I felt like moving to France. (You French people are so lucky to have the Japan Expo! I want to move there! Why not Japan? Tempting, but I think the cultural differences are too strong.)

29. The first time I felt good with the way I look. (Have you seen me in the wig? Fab.)


30. The first time I was interviewed. (I still can’t believe it. The girls have seen the DVD as well. I’m right before the very end so even if they fast forwarded to their own interview they might have seen me :D)

DSC3117_DxOMany firsts this year and hope many more in 2015.

Happy New Year!


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  • 1. morningtime  |  January 1, 2015 at 4:35 AM

    Great post! Some comments per first.

    1. How did it go? What was the reaction?
    4. I kind of know how that feels. The first time seeing idols live is really just awe-inspiring, surreal and beautiful.
    13. The feeling of freedom is brilliant. When you can just wear any outfits you want and just enjoy the idols while knowing that everyone in your vicinity gets it. It’s so precious. So many people just being happy together. It’s what the rave scene must have been like in the 90’s only with better music and no need for drugs. Oh and prettier singers.
    16. Aww. They sound sweet. Who are they? πŸ˜‰ β™₯
    23. The wig was awesome.
    24. Orange Port are also awesome.
    29. The wig suits you but you look good without i too!
    30. I nod too much. Urgh! Yet…I’m still so happy just to be in shot. πŸ˜€

    Long and random reply but I wanted to say some stuff. πŸ™‚

    • 2. ladybird  |  January 1, 2015 at 8:35 PM

      Thank you πŸ™‚
      1. Reactions varied from polite silence to lukewarm appreciation. I really hoped for a bit more but it seems that non-fans aren’t much into a bunch of Japanese schoolgirls pretending to play instruments while contemplating the meaning of life *shrugs*
      4. It’s the best feeling ever. I can imagine being addicted to it. Just give me enough money and I’d follow them around like a professional stalker.
      13. Lol. I pity the fools who never experienced it. It’s boring if you just carry on with your life without such opportunities.
      16. I honestly wish we could visit each other more often and have some nice talks over tea, spirits and some old DVDs like Morning Musume’s first Budokan. We would have soo much to discuss πŸ˜€
      23. *nod nod*
      24. *nod nod nod* I plan on buying their music on iTunes. I just need to moan some more to my sister. She’s already buying me the Berikyuu in JE DVD. Btw, did you buy it or are you planning to? YesAsia offers it without a shipping fee. Still pretty expensive but I just need to have it.
      29. I’m working on believing it so thank you πŸ™‚
      30. I’m happy that I haven’t butchered any English πŸ˜€ At least you’re not wearing an Erika Umeda T-shirt. That would be just awkward XD

  • 3. morningtime  |  January 1, 2015 at 10:45 PM

    Tea, spirits and DVD’s. I think in Europe there are very few people who can get together and do that but it sounds so good. I sometimes envy the London wotas as they all live close enough to actually socialise in real life. Like actually be next to each other in person. Crazy thought I know but it happens!

    I bought Orange Port’s Wonderland on iTunes. It’s on some odd album I forget the name of. Some tracks are by them but there are other artists too. It was lucky I had a little bit of credit left on an old itunes Japanese gift card I’d got on eBay years ago. That old Japanese itunes account predates the days when H!P songs were available in Europe. The last bit of credit on it went to a good home. πŸ™‚

    We don’t plan on getting the Berikyuu DVD just yet. I think it’ll have to wait. Hopefully it will be available on YesAsia for a while or else I’ll have to rely on eBay or something later in the year.

    At least there was no Erika hug pillow. Ptom has a homemade one made from one of those towels. He could have brought it along:to recreate the days of 6-nin C-ute. Just hold it up in front of the stage and voila! It’d be just like the old days. πŸ˜€

  • 4. MTSayuRin  |  January 4, 2015 at 1:54 AM

    This is a lovely post, I really enjoyed reading it!

    I can relate to so many of the firsts you mention. Some of them I’ve yet to experience, and some of them I’ve experienced earlier, but yes, we are clearly in the same fandom. πŸ™‚ While reading your post, I kept thinking, “yes, that’s EXACTLY how it felt”. Too bad the fans live far apart from each other…

    I hope Orange Port will release a new single soon, there isn’t much to buy at the moment, really!

    Oh and I loved your wig too, it’s the perfect colour to cheer for Airi and Sayu as well! πŸ™‚

    • 5. ladybird  |  January 7, 2015 at 11:18 PM

      I’m glad you liked it πŸ˜€
      I share the same hopes for Orange Port. I honestly have their songs stuck to my head. They have still lots to learn but it’s how idols grow and I love it this way.


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